Last night I watched the movie Mona Lisa Smile. I’d seen it before, but only once, and it had been quite a while. It’s a great movie that teaches women that they can be more than just a housewife, they can live for themselves and not just their man. But I think I’m like Joan. Joan is smart and driven and she gets accepted into Yale law school, yet she chooses to instead get married and be a housewife. She doesn’t want to miss out on keeping a home and a husband and children.
I’m definitely Joan. I have several advanced degrees and have always had very career oriented goals. But I like being home. And it just hit me this week.
When I decided to quit my job, a big part of the reason why was because I was never home. Hubs and I were eating dinner as late as 10:00pm some nights. Then I resigned, and a few days later, another full time staff member quit. I offered to stay and help part time. The week and a half where I worked for only 4 hours a day (instead of 10) was wonderful. The house, while far from spotless, was the cleanest it had ever stayed for more than two days. I was making great meals that Hubs and I were eating at normal dinner times. I even had a regular grocery shopping schedule and time to clip and organize coupons!
Then the two remaining full time staff members took back to back vacations, and I was back to “helping” at my full time hours. And the house fell apart SO INCREDIBLY FAST! (That’s also the reason I haven’t been posting on here).
They’re back from their vacations now, and I’m back to part time hours. But it is so much harder to start over again. I don’t want to keep going back and forth between working full time and being a homemaker full time. As Joan said, “I want a home; I want a family, that’s not something I’ll sacrifice.”